Long Text Messages... still processing

It's been a while hasn't it? We've come out of a weird time in life and still going through it. We're over covid, we were in the streets for George and now we're out here for Gaza. I feel like the world is waking up in all ways. We're exposing each other, we're exposing ourselves and all the lines are drawn. It feels like we have to choose a side. I feel like it's only right to choose a side. A lot have retreated to making their lives the same as it was before all this. How could you? Everything feels so different to me. I'm still trying to figure out how to navigate this difference while trying to pick up the pieces of my life so I can finally get some legs. So many changes. My studio has to move. Me and my girlfriend have to move. It's the first time I ever considered if moving to a different place would benefit my career and finances. I feel like I might have reached the top of MY mountain. Vancouver has been a place that hasn't fed my creativity in a while but instead sucked a lot of it out of me because of how dry it is here. I usually never speak ill of my city but I don't want to give everything up to work for these big brands and companies that are going to pay my bills just live comfortably. Something about that leaves a bad taste in my mouth right now. People might advise me that I don't have to look at it this way. "selling out". I just want to be able to do what I want to do but I don't know how to make money from this. Do I need to learn a new skill?? Do I want to. 3 years later and I'm still asking the same questions. I've yet to find answers. I'm still being born again I guess. - God is Love