Sydney

Out of all the mistakes I made, my biggest mistake and only regret is that it had to happen with you. It sucks. It really, really sucks. - God is Love 

Different Times, Same Values

- God is Love 

When I die bury me inside the..

Another year of life has rolled around.. 

Today Im 24. I'm excited. I enjoy aging and "getting old". We can all agree that "time waits on no man". I think it's one of our responsibilities as people to grow. It just naturally happens. Some people don't want to "grow up". They don't think about kids, marriage or not having the life they have now or be able to do the things we're doing currently when we're 30. The thing is, how much of what you're doing now is going to matter to you when you're 30, 35, 40 years old. What's important in your life now, your wants and needs will change as life goes on. There will be new things, new people that will be bringing us joy. Sure we'll miss the "good old days" but we can't progress if we're always looking back on those memories instead of making new ones. When we're on our last breathe and our life flashes before our eyes.. I hope that it is filled with 70, 80, 90, or 100 years worth of lifelong happiness. Remember, age is just a reminder of how long it's been, not how long we have left. Whatever age you are, keep making those memories. I hope you all are happy, because we ain't getting any younger. I'm happy with that. - God is Love 

Upgrade You

When we're looking into getting a new relationship, of course, we want it to be better than the last one. We want all the things that didn't work to work in the next one. Which isn't wrong at all. Sometimes we get into the mindset that they also have to be, better looking, than our last person.. and that's where we fall apart. 

An upgrade from our past relationship possess qualities in them that you cannot see. If we're looking for 'looks' then we've only downgraded ourselves. 

So the next time your girl or homie says "She/He can do wayyy better". Look at the smile on that persons face and tell your friend "They have. And so can you". - God is Love

Write again

Visions change but passion never fades away. I used to want to be writer. Now I'm a photographer. I feel like I don't have a lot to say anymore in terms of writing. I look back at my old blogs and I really felt like I was helping people. I felt like they could really relate to what I'm saying. Now I feel like no one can really understand me. I feel like everything is open. Everything is free. I want to write and tell stories now, no more anecdotes. Although, I still admire people that can write. GirlsaretheNewBoys and Raaachemm. They're both so tight at what they do. 

Maybe I've become more selfish? Maybe I've become more private? Maybe being an artist really is, complicated. haha. I guess I don't really know where I'm going with this. But I think all I'm trying to say is. I want to write more. And write often. Maybe I'll pretend like I want to become a writer again. - God is Love 

Pack Light

Traveling has given me a new perspective on life. My mother encouraged me to see the world. To take advantage of my youth and the opportunity I have to do all these things. Since my first trip alone to San Francisco, I've never felt so comfortable since I found photography. I've haven't found anything else I wanted to do just as much as photography until I traveled. I wish I could travel all the time. Now I'm obsessed. haha. I'm even planning on taking a break from work just to travel and see what I want to see in this world. And photograph everything in my way. - God is Love 

"So, do you have a girlfriend?" 

"Nope" 

"Are you looking for one?" 

"Uhm, I feel like if you go looking for someone, you'll run into a lot of bad ones before you run into the good one" 

- God is Love

Not Like Me

Don't fall in love with someone like me. I will take you to museums and monuments and places you never knew existed. And kiss you in every beautiful way that you will never be able to go back to them without tasting me. Like the way you taste blood in your mouth. - God is Love 

"Don't look back, you're not going that way"

I never would have thought a quote on a t-shirt at my work place would have any relevance to my actual life. After making fun of the series of of "quote" t-shirts at work, one of them actually makes sense right now. 

Not that I'm really that old. I'm 23. That's not old. When I was 19, I felt like I had all the time in the world to figure out what I wanted to do. See the thing is, I always knew what I wanted to do. I was just, too scared to do what it actually takes for me to get there. I always held myself back for some stupid reason, whether it was my lack of education, money, or even a girl. In reality, I was afraid. I know that I'm great, and I can do so much more than what I'm doing now. I know He has a plan greater than this for me. 

It's been a struggle for me the past couple months, but like I've said before. Struggle, means to progress with difficulty. Which means, I'm gonna make it. Gradually, I'm letting go of everything that's holding me back. No more plan B's. There's only one way, and one destination. Whatever it takes. Whatever it takes. - God is Love 

PS. Even with this blog I've been holding back on writing in general. So, here we go. again. ha.