Long Text Messages... "not just for Summer"

I’ve never had a “summer love”. But if I did this would be one. But this is not just for summer. It’s for fall, it’s for winter it’s for spring. It’s for summer again. I say “love” is a strong word. And so is “forever”. But those words came so quickly and came so naturally when it comes to her. I don’t have doubts. I don’t have worries when I look her straight in the eye and say “for the rest of my life”. This isn’t the summer talking. This is fall, this is winter, this is spring talking. She tells me we’re “compatible”. I don’t know why I don’t agree right away so I ask her why she says that. She says because we realize we change, we are curious, we listen and we change some more. I don’t know why I questioned her about it because I know that all of this is true. This isn’t the sun messing with me head, it’s the leaves, it’s the snow, it’s the flowers too. Is it cliche for me to say I’ve never felt like this before. But I know this is true. Because I haven’t. Because I’ve never had her before. I’ve never felt someone like her. This isn’t just the summer talking..  - God is Love 

Long Text Messages... "Whichever Way"

Reading back to a lot of my older posts from more than 10 years ago, there is an 18 year old me, although younger, had something that I lost in the last 10 years. Something that I've found again recently. Something I've learned to teach myself again. It's the feeling of content with uncertainty. 

It's not bad to focus on direction and security. However, neither of those are certain. Our directions can change instantly and security is never guaranteed.  As much as we think we can have control over certain things... "anything can happen". That phrase for a while gave me an uneasy feeling. I'd try to grab hold of it but what's the point. Growing up made me feel as if I had to "get my shit together" and not live so nonchalantly. 

I guess it's really just a combination of both. Having an idea with the direction we want to drive ourselves in, having a goal and working towards it. But also knowing, at any instant, that road can change. We should trust in the fact that, when the road changes doesn't mean we're completely lost or that we've failed, we've simply just started switched cars. 


- God is Love